SOS?

Today was a stressful, sucky day in many ways. I learned what it's like to feel helpless, useless. To worry to the point of fear. It's not fun, let me tell you.

It's a wonder how I can feel so lonely despite having many close friends. I suppose currently the "close" is more metaphorical than literal -- most of them aren't anywhere in the nearby vicinity. A few of 'em are, but loneliness is only in part due to the lack of people's presence. It's moreso my own fault, I suppose; I can't help wanting to isolate myself, and yet, here I sit, yearning for a certain specific company, yet I myself can't identify who that company might entail. So many ironies therein lie.

That had nothing to do with the helplessness, though. Well, ok, it might have been an effect, but it wasn't the cause.

I can't write correct sentences today.

I need a new playlist. Or my old one. Kicks only last for so long, inherent to the name. I also need more Eminem music. Rap, anyone?

I want...